A note to Kim

Before I begin to talk about this past weekend, I need to write some things to my sister that I want her to know;
Kim,
I hope that you know how much I love you. I know that you and I weren't very close when we were younger and I know why. I was jealous through and through of how strong, intelligent, and spiritual you were and still are. Ever since I moved away, I have missed you more and more and know that I took advantage of how close we lived to each other a few years ago. During that time and since I've lived out here in Tennessee, you have become one of my best friends and it is tearing me up inside to not be there to hug you and be there for you physically. Know that I am with you spiritually and I will do anything I can to help you.
I am not gifted like you when it comes to being able to express my emotions through writing, as you are. I am a nervous speaker and have realized that I usually mess up anything I say unless it has something to do with a movie. I wouldn't even be writing this dumb blog if it wasn't for you encouraging me. This past weekend was bitter sweet for me. I had you on my mind all the time, because you almost came with me. I hated myself for having fun because I knew that you were miserable. But I know that you only want me to be happy and I hope you know that that is all I want for you Kim....happiness. It will take time, but we have all eternity as sisters to find that happiness, and we will find it one day whether we notice it or not.